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overbooked : continuing the bloomington saga
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It’s been a wee bit, and there’s a lot to update on!
The visit to Indiana was lovely. Anita was introduced to both sides of the family, much cooking was done, and I got to see my mother’s side of the family, whom I adore.
The visit to Bloomington was also phenomenal. Saw a fair number of people, cherished every scant moment I got with them, and really started to feel like Seattle is Home.
Upon my return, I went straight to work. I now have a full-time job at a law office in downtown Seattle, doing random stuff and generally making things easy on everyone else. I’ve also just been notified that I will indeed be working at Chez Gaudy. Both of these jobs fulfill an aspect of my personality, and I’m quite pleased at the prospect of having enough money to live on, play on, and save with. I start apartment hunting this weekend and am looking to sell my car to jump-start that process. Please let me know if you know of anyone that’s looking.
The downside to having two jobs (likely looking at 70 hours a week total) along with volunteering at LRS is that I’ll likely be disappearing. I’ll have Saturday and Sunday mornings/afternoons off as well as Monday evenings guaranteed off, but other than that, it’s been lovely knowing you all.
I will also be wearing my wig for both jobs, and with so little time left to prep the hawk, I may grow it out for something that’s at least suitable for one job (if not both) to save on time. Not sure yet. We’ll see. I do love it so.
Continuing with the image trend on this journal…
Also, the Midwest produces some odd things. WTF is this, anyway!?
heartbreaker series : post secret edition
I’ve been having a fair number of conversations lately about what it is to be in love with someone who is bad for you. And more poignantly, what is it to still think about them regularly, despite all the shit they put you through.
Quite often, they’re incredible people. They are charming, witty, and of course devilishly handsome. Quirky in all the right ways. Too often, it’s not who they (or you) are, per se, but who you become around each other. This is something I’ve been realizing… just because of the Bad Shit that happened, that I was involved in, it doesn’t mean that I’m A Bad Person. But then do you also have to make the same allowances for them? It’s too easy to demonize someone to legitimize difficult decisions.
I would guess that what we really want is some closure. But with those people, the feelings you have are so intense that you can’t just walk away. Something Drastic has to happen instead. But then you always wonder, it always picks at the back of your brain… what if that hadn’t happened? No matter how established the cycle was, cycles are meant to be broken, right?
I don’t have regrets, only questions.
So this is me baring a bit of my soul. A good friend recently told me that emotions are important things, and I really have been trying to pay attention to mine recently. But that means dusting off so many things I had filed away through logic. Having all this alone time forces introspection, which often hurts more than expected. But it builds character, right? It’s all just back story…
Protected:
yesterday was amazing
So. I’ll tell you why it was amazing after paperwork is filed. Don’t want to jinx it.
In the meantime, I have a slight celebrity crush on Henry from Ugly Betty. Shut up.
structure
So as much as I love being in Seattle, I’ve been severely lacking in structure. Going from having the crazy-busy schedule in Bloomington to job hunting online (and occasionally on foot) and attempting to fill my own time has led to some mental ruts and general funks. So I started forcing myself out of the apartment, seeing friends, volunteering at events, etcetera.
Today I received a job offer, and while it’s not quite as much as I need to be making, it’s a start, and it’s at a really neat place. I can live off of it, which means getting my own place, a much-needed hair fix (I’m hoping we can get a stark white in with the blue, with some teal highlighting), and an even-more necessary gym membership.
I’ve also been keeping myself busy in other ways. Been spending a lot of time with various people. Today I’m going to Tilth with a friend visiting from NYC, then to a play another friend is in, and then likely the drinking. Tomorrow Nathan and I are going to see Rossum’s Universal Robots. This is neat because it’s the first time the Czech word for forced labor, “robota,” was adapted into noun form. Then Saturday I’m volunteering at Little Red Studio again. Last week I helped out for their production of Hello Penis, which is nothing like the name suggests but actually a pretty poignant play about what it is to be male in our culture, and all the expectations placed on you. Sunday is the volunteer cast party for SEAF (at which I looked this hot. Yes, that’s a privacy headset, the one that registers vocal chord vibrations).
I also went to the Fluevog store here in Seattle to buy these shoes:
Stevenson, the store manager, I know through Nathan and Kristen. He’s awesome and super friendly. When I went in with Anita to put my shoes on layaway (no, I don’t have my babies yet), I hugged Stevenson and he said “Willow, I want you to meet someone. This is John.” My response was, “you mean… like John? Um. Eep. Hi.”
So we had a lovely chat about the wedding he had just attended and Vancouver, and I met his very awesome wife, and he made sure the shoes fit right, and then he jokingly signed them. So after I gather another undisclosed amount of dollars, I will have a signed pair of what my brother describes as “sex with a sole” (actually, that comment refers to his pair, which are the hottest things ever).
::inhale::
That about wraps it up.
Oh yeah, I’ll be at Axis on the 24th. Come hug me.
discuss
Started Love + Sex w/ Robots a few days ago. Question: will human-like robots or oxygen tech be preferred, or is that a false dichotomy?
some days…
..you have to remember that our brains are still basically suited for flinging poo at each other out of trees. And just because you have all the pieces in front of you doesn’t mean they’ll necessarily fit the outcome.
DNA was a genius.
edit : no, this is not on my leg. please see the comments if you haven’t read the entire H2G2 series and so don’t get the reference
We’re all just winging it, all the time, no matter how well-laid you think your plans are (though they certainly do help). Try to be the kind of person who’s ok with that.
ner
I found this lovely person online today (well, I guess she techincally found me).
This made my sleep-deprived brain giggle for several minutes:
I think we’re going to be internet friends! Gwee!
